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Well, i have offically joined the ranks of the unemployed again. the kosher resturant i was working at let me go for somewhat vague reasons (I think they're going out of buisness) but either way i am without work. strangly enough i am actually not so down about this. All week i have been in this kind of shell shocked fog not to mention the weird mixture of good and bad things that have happened to me. things like being let go, get insurance money in the mail, a random old doctor bill that i thought was paid but apparently not, along with various other small things (i also go a cheap ipod) either good or bad that happened. despite all of these things i am still essentailly detached from the world around me. i know that i am charismatic enough not to let this be apparent but within myself i am hardly aware of my own being. And the reason for this is the ultimate in my good/bad week, a wonderful/painful decision that i(we) made. i am so happy to have finally made the move into doing the right thing, into stopping was was so that what will be can happen. but for right now i am still just a little dazed. I know that i will be able to snap myself out of this inverted gaze at lest to some extant not long from now, but it is still difficult. right now i need to stop focus on all the great, amazing things that i have ahead of me, go find a new job, and set up a better time to study halacha and school. after that i need to byproxy cheer up a certain friend of mine, and then mail a huge package to the same person to cheer them up because they are wonderful. after all of this i will take lesson to improve my horrific grammer and typing abilities because they are atrocious. anyway i going to at least pretend to be cheery.